the latest me

i know i have not update my blog for quite sometimes already. very sorry! thanks for all the caring emails. i love to receive and really enjoy reading all your cutest concern for me... *touch*
hmmm... am i consider as starting to have certain readers for my blog :p very happy lor!
what were I doing for these 2 weeks?
i have done my reading for eat,pray,love by elizabeth gilbert, princess magical charms by aness.an and tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom. now reading for one more day by mitch albom, too.
i don't know since when i developed reading habit. but, to my surprise, i have really become a better girl. hmmm... in terms of emotional management. feeling management. i meant feeling towards those comment and incident that discomfort me. i was always throw my tempered to anyone who just next to me when thing doesn't happen on my way. but now, i am learning to think on their shoes before think on my own shoes. i will try my very best to think why he acts like that, why he talks like that to me? i am trying to see it from different perspective. and such act really calm me down much more faster than usual. the book that really touched me is tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom. it is about last 14 tuesday classes from a lecturer who has diagnosed "amyotrophic lateral sclerosis", called ALS in short to his student who received his lectures 16 years ago. i was crying the whole 14 chapters. i don't know why. but his message is so simple and direct. really leads me to think for my future. what do i really want? all these years, i thought i must buy a big house, drive luxurious car, eat whatever food i like, buy anything i love, hang around with anyone i am comfortable with. all these must be done with my family. this is really what i thought since the first day i know how to earn income. i had my 1st double storey at my age 18 then 2nd condominium at my age 19. what an awesome achievement for a young girl like me. after the book, i realized actually those materialistic stuff is not really what i want deep inside my heart. what do i really want is LOVE!!! lots of LOVE!! endless LOVE!!! true LOVE!! i am seriously lacking of LOVE all these years. is funny that i only realized it at my age 26. better than no chance to realize huh? the second i finished the last page, i have decided and committed to give out my true and sincere love to everyone around me. never expect for any returns. of course if i have the chance to receive love is much much much better. everyone does knows that we must give before we gain. i start to give first and you pour yours to me later on, deal?
now i realized that actually i am surrounding by love. but i never learn to appreciate. to me, i am so cute, that's why i deserve your love. but, i have misused the love that my friends gave it to me. i am sorry. i also misused the love that my parents give without any reason. i treats it as "lei so dong yin" which means is your JOB to give love. in fact, it is NOT. and if we treat today is our last day to live on the earth, the day we are going to die then you will have the complete 360 degree changes on your attitude to everything! human never believe that they will die one day or perhaps next second. that's why keep fooling the precious time. and always drag until tomorrow only to do. well, i am not up to that stage yet. i am still learning on how to really treat my day as my last day in life. i believe if one day i can adapt it into my life then i am completely another me. i believe i will gain more love. i really waiting for the day to come. very emo post huh? but this is me at this moment. suddenly i realize the things or principles that i am holding all these years are actually suffering me a lot. when your heart open, you really can see the opportunity everywhere. you will find out how childish you are on holding those really small matter, small person into your own personal life. i am like that. holding on a something not worth my time. foolish time. all the time has gone. i was creating drama in my head all these years. and those drama is actually not happen. hahaha! those are happening make me trying to escape but those are not happening make me face it everyday. hahaha! 
moving on....
wow! i do have some great news to share. i don't know what happened. but, there is 2 guys approached to me at the same time. hahaha!!!
both are Mr Nice Guy!

forgiveness

recently, i started to learn to be more open heart in sharing. sharing my real feeling deep inside my heart not my mind. mind always lie but rational. heart always honest but irrational. lie vs honest. it's so hard to weigh when comes for decision. honestly, i looked so rational in front of my family and friends but behind them i always do irrational things. this is the main reason why i still haven't settle down since 3 years ago. many bad incidents  happened over the past 3 years after our separation. hmmm.. i should said those were actually good signs for me. i realize i have control issues. i like to control everything. easily get depressed when the thing not going on my way. this could be the main reason why i escaped from my marriage years ago. thank you for all the experiences over the years, else i won't be able to write up this post. a real me post.
both of us are changed since 8 years ago when we met up and started to date. after so many good and bad changes occured, we still able to accept each other. this is true love. you will realize true love when your partner has become another person who seems so closed but yet strange to you and you still love him or her for who he or her is. congratulation! congratulation to both us!
whatever we did on the past, hurting each other, scolding each other, acting cool to each other. we holding those matters seriuosly and not willing to let go on our past. today, i can tell you we already let go. forgiveness do happen among us. i am growing! 
maybe one day we will recouple again if he tells me:
i knew i have screwed it up, but i will love you forever!!!

and again!

Enough is enough. Enough is really meant enough. But, why I never learnt from it? I always told myself not to get distracted, not to easily fall into the trap again. Whatever happen, just stand still with my own principle. But, alas, i always failed =_______________= (Maybe. I don't even know what is my principle?)
A girl is willing to travel for more than 20km for ONE WAY every single night just to see a guy who he himself not really treats her well. Back and forth 40km. Just to spend 2 to 3 hours to meet a guy? A Mr Not Nice Guy, wtf. Go home late at night or i should say early in the morning 1am to 2am or 3am? I just can say she is so STUPID! Opsss.. she is very GREAT!
The guy left her alone on the roadside with her own car and drives his car to look for his beloved wife. The girl unwilling to give up coz the guy just dumped her alone. She secretly followed his car to his destination. The guy only awared when he almost reach his beloved wife's house. Why the guy so foolish? Not even aware when someone is followed while cruising along the road? It's funny for me! Long story short, the girl didn't managed to know where his beloved wife's stay. It's LUCKY! Else, the innocent wife might in "danger". Hahaha!
Few morale of the story:-
1. The guy is lucky because he found a girl who loves him more than he does.
2. The girl is so great in giving out her love but unfortunately to a wrong man in her life.
I concluded, both of them don't even know what is LOVE about! The girl is a possesive person. The guy is not insisted enough. Obviously, the guy really really loves his wife but he has screwed it up!

The biggest secret for my post is I AM THE BELOVED WIFE, wtf, kns!
HAHAHAHAHAHA, yeah, serioulsy, just for sharing, for fun to fuel your day up! :D

I am moving...

dunno wat title shud b given

trying to post with my berry. a berry that gary bought for me. sometimes he really touched me. watched sex n the city vi just now. wow, it's awesome! it's good that if we really find true friends during our breathe time. it's even better if we date for true love forever, or perhaps once. i'm in my middle of 20's now. a decade for me to learn, get hurt, fall down, stand up, forgive, act cute (hey, i'm a real cute gal), create story, dates, work, eat, play! n wateva!

Time vs Discipline = MONEY

Time flies fast.. super fast...

Now has comes to an end of July 2010...

Over the seven months, i have lost my anticipation for my dreams, i living in apprehension for many reasons

many nonsense reasons.. many.. many...

it's not easy to build momentum and discipline for our dreams, i have given up half way.. not even reach quarter of my journey..

i hate to see a NATO [no action talk only] me, real hate!!!

everything happened is because of I,me,myself ALLOWED it to be happened on me! funny.. is a sad funny.

especially over the past two months, i have had a hellish life, my frame of mind is just like.. suddenly rolling down the slope, suddenly striking to the sky. it is so extreme till breathless.

now has comes to the end. i decided to let it END! without YOUR consent, well, you've no right to approve for me though.

this is my life! i must be responsible for myself. NOT you.

after my strong affirmation for myself, i started to see sunshine reflects on my chubby face and body, i can feel the heat, the positive energy, the strong power that keep pulling me out from the dark moon, no lights.

i appeal to myself to live my SECOND CHANCE OF LIFE with fullest!

EVIL YOU, stay away from ME!!!

I am ALIVE ('',)

原来我还是很坚强。。。

一直被感情问题纠缠给我，终于下定决心将它彻底给解决去。[我知道我讲佐千百次？！]
一直以为是我当初给霸道同埋任性将他伤害了。
一直以为里一切给一切是我自己将事情给搞砸了。
一直以为总有好多一直以为。。。真是白痴到！！！
我都不明是么耶令到我撑到今日还抱着个一丝丝给期望咯。
他话：女人应该学蠢点，男人先喜欢。
我静静给没回答。心理想，难道明知道你给所作所为是会伤害到自己给，都要忍声吞气吗？
我是一个好理智给新时代女性咯！
我真是没办法做到“委屈求全”，对吾住！

由5 月尾开始，我一直都被他“所谓给前度女友”纠缠不放。
虽然同他一起甘多年，
虽然已经被他背叛过千百次，
虽然我一次又一次甘没条件甘原谅他，
虽然他一次又一次甘做被我剃他有给重视我，
虽然他不曾大大声甘恼我，
虽然他好识得哄我，
虽然他对我是百分之二百给大方，非常舍得花钱是我身上，亦都没拿过我便宜，
虽然他时不时都会关心我，
虽然还有好多个虽然。。。
但是，
我真地真地好累，好累，好累。。。

我相信他是真的爱我，我能感受到，
我相信所有给背叛都是他一时贪玩。
我知道我已经原谅晒他所做错给一切。

是一本书上，忘记佐作者给名，在此讲声：sorry! 她讲：
如果当对方变佐同当初你所认识给吾一样而你一样甘喜欢对方给话，恭喜你！你已经揾到你给真爱！

而我到今日为止，依然总甘喜欢他，是好事定是坏事？

random

i'm sleepy but still wish to write something on my blog ((:

I'm so honored to attend the 2 days Law of Attraction training by Mr Karthi. Billions thanks to Saravanan for inviting me to be part of the "FREE" students :P Met 30 over nice people from different walk of lives. I maybe the youngest and lowest among you all.. thanks for the equal opportunity for everyone! I learnt a lot and this definitely will brighten my future!

My good friend's mom had passed away... Went for the wake service to send my deepest condolence to her. She is the most tuff person that I ever met! I'm so proud of you... Really, proud of you! I believe you are a strong lady.. You are definitely can easily to overcome any scenario in life...

Yesterday was my last day to WORK FOR PEOPLE
today is my first day to WORK FOR MYSELF
i know that NOT MUCH people are sending their sincere wishes for me...
they just expressed by their mouth but not by their heart... SERIOUSLY, i can feel it...BUT, i never show it...
thank you for all the hypo-critical faces! Kicking my ass to grow like crazy...
GOD is watching what you are doing so watch me out! I'll prove to you that "I've chosen the right road for myself" by this year end ((:
I'm so gratitude for your sincere being with me. I know who are you and millions of thanks to you... Your presence are so meant for me.

Last night I had a great talk with my ex best friend. I never thought that I still be able to have such long chat with him. Well, he really showed something to me that I really meant something for him. The feeling is great to forgive people and move on our life...

Happy that my mentor Jenny is back to Malaysia! Looking forward to work together with you ((:

I'm going to spend my Sunday which is tomorrow to complete my goal settings then START WORK. Hooray, i'm true excited for what's going to happen in my life soon... I believe it will definitely be an exciting and fun journey for me :D

HUMAN RELATIONSHIP

I'm about to sleep now but deep inside my heart there is a soul saying that I MUST voice out tonight else I'll be going for STATIC mode on coming time. Pretty true...
Recently, I feel not so happy to tag along with some friends who I quite used to tag along with. I'm not going to disclose any details here as those friends might read my blog. I'm not afraid if he/she accidentally or purposely read my blog or whatever shit. But, I do it is simply because of my PROFESSIONALISM. Come on, I'm a mature adult, I can't simply say anyone bad thing over my blog, right? But, still I'm a normal human, too. I need to express myself @ the right time @ the right place with the right people Ermm.. is pretty sad to tell you that I don't have any right people by my side now so I've no choice to voice out my deepest feeling here.
We knew each other for minimum 10 years already. Passed thru so many touching moments and did so much silly acting ((: Well, seriously, I do appreciate our friendship. Really.. I DO. But, recent these few years, they've had did so much things that really hurt me. Never tell them.. Most of the time, I chose to keep quiet - mark in my memory - filter them slowly - give them benefit of doubt - second chance.... Not everyone will appreciate the chances that we given out. Well, I told myself: "That's fine.Go sleep now... they'll back to be a better person for you tomorrow. By tomorrow, our friendship can be back on track."  Life is GOOD and CRUEL sometimes. GOD seems like haven't receive my message that's why till date everything IS JUST THE SAME. Luckily, I still own another bunch of friends who are in the same alignment with me. Feel so great when somebody understand me. The feeling is terrific!
Hey friends,
maybe we cannot continue to walk the path together... 
maybe I been talking rude to you recently...
maybe I slowly stay far away from you...
maybe I stop listening to your calls and replying to your SMS...
maybe I will block you in all my communication webs one day...
maybe I don't even feel like wanted to know any single news from you...
Anyway.... Anyhow... Whatever SHIT...
I still WISH that your life will be continued sparkling, shining, happy & happening even without ME!!!
Thank you for leaving your precious foot print on my book... GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU ONCE UPON TIME ((((((:

Commitment

*COMMITMENT*

Meant alot for me! But, what does it actually meant?
According to NCIKU:

• 1. the act of committing or pledging
• 2. the state of being committed or pledged
• 3. an obligation, promise, etc that restricts one's freedom of action
• 4. the referral of a bill to a committee or legislature
• 5. the official consignment of a person to a mental hospital or prison
• 6. commission or perpetration, esp of a crime
• 7. a future financial obligation or contingent liability 

It is such a heavy word regardless in anything you do or promise. I always tell myself to have commitment in anything I do. Be it in sports, health, wealth, family, dating, friendship, career and whatever it is la! But, the fact now is I always become a NATO (NO Action Talk Only) instead of really putting effort to accomplish my promise for myself. Let's have a look on my check list:- (Make sure you don't laugh at me ar :P)

1. Lose weight is such a "lifetime activity" for every single girl. Erm.. i personally BELIEVE not only apply to grls nowadays. Most of my guys also busy shape up, wtf! I wanted to kick off my 20KG for so many yearssssssss but the max I succeed was only 10KG and now bounce back -____- This showed that my commitment is not really a commitment ya, FML
2. THREE years ago, I promised and committed to a guy that I will take care and loves him forever. Well, I did a pretty good job task ME for him at the FIRST year. YES, only first year. Slowly, I've becoming a girl who he himself also cannot recognize. Me myself also cannot recognize, too. TIME can be a good curative but sometimes also can be noxious. It is a border thing lo. Over my relationship with him, it is certified that we are LOVE POISONING lo. I'm glad that I was brave enough to make a so called "wise decision" that time => LEAVING HIM. On my first year, it was so painful. Second year, can saw a little bit of sunshine some times but still very painful. Third year, do missed him but only a sudden moment. Today, i'm entering the FORTH year. Man, 4th year! You think so easy to walk alone until here mie? This also proved that I failed with my commitment, FML
3. I am always a hard worker. Good worker. Loyal worker (if you pay me more and more bonus with lots of increment XDXD) NO lei, i'm not so calculative. As long as I can find the satisfaction around the tasks that assigned to me then everything is easy to deal. I bought my 1st double-storey at my age 18. Bought another condominium at my age 19. What a great achievement, right? I was true satisfied and happy for that. Right after 19, I was busy on dating. -__________- So, no more BIG and AWESOME achievement on my career until today. Life is so siannn to me now. I really want to "rejuvenate" my mind, soul and body for another level of satisfaction THIS YEAR! Watch me out ((:

I think these 3 points already showed that I'm only a 3 minutes hot grl in doing anything in my life until this moment. Be it in health, wealth and relationship. Most of the times, I also @~@ dunno what I really want. Hmm.. but I always believe people will grow little by little, day by day. Today, I'm kinda sure what I really want NOW. May be is ridiculous to you but it is possible to achieve for myself. I will cover more on my BIG PROJECT this year in my next post!


It's time to Zzzzzzzz.. Good night everyone ((:


P/S: I know that there are always some readers on my blog but maybe just to shy to leave comment for me. Come on.. come talk to me la.. Hahaha!

my 2010 astrology prediction

My 2010 horoscope VIRGO-Extracted from ASTRO monthly magazine.

Let me give you brief explanation:-

HIGH EXPENSES! Is going to be my 2010 portrayal! Gosh, shall I be happy? In the other hand, High expenses means I got to earn High income then only can have High expenses lifestyle. Woohoo, i'm gonna be rich this year that's why I'll have different lifestyle. A more luxury one, may be :))) I'll come to contact with different level of lifestyle, more broad, more wide, YEAH!

Apart from "dull J.O.B [Just Over Broke]" and learning, I'll expand few more directions in my life. Well, I really have no idea what are the directions about right now. As I started to slowly pick up some sports.. maybe this is one of the direction that it mentioned. Those directions will definitely spend a lot of my time. Sounds like "huge" project for me this year. Because of I'll spend more time on different directions, definitely I'll broaden my vision. Hence, I'll slowly forget my “unjoyful" experienced or past. Awww.. this is one of the tuff part in my life now! For sure I really wish to remove it from my memory permanently. It mentioned it is related to HUMAN! Bingo! This painful memory is driving me crazy for few years already. I hope one day I can tell anyone that:"This painful memory has been driven me crazy" I'll be facing the ever BIGGEST challenge in the year from June to September - Networking break down. People might not going the way I want. Anyway, I'm NOT the boss for anybody, people are not force to going to the direction I want or doing the thing I demand. I had read from one wall poster, it said: If people do not look pleasing in our eyes, it is only because of we are ill-cultivated. Since then, it always reminding me whenever I started to dissatisfy with one person [Except that person is really wanted to malicious attacks me, then the whole story will be different la]. It really works, try it out! However, my mentality will be changing from time to time, definitely. What I really care the most initially will become least finally. Disasters and happiness always go together. We should learn to accept them calmly.

GOOD time will be falling on month FEB, AUG [Yo, my bufdayyy month ;D],OCT

BAD time will be falling on month JAN [Super bad time now], MAC till JULY. WTF, 5 mths on the row bad time?!

Anyway, we should not only depends on astrology prediction. Maybe this can be treated as reference only. Don't take it so serious. We should always believe that we have the POWER to control our destiny.......

Have you read yours???

Holiday is end liao... Returning back to reality like a walking corpse =_="

Repeating the cycle of my life now. When is the end for me T_T

Hou lan sian ar. Feel like wanted to say more about my company today.

I joined this company on mid year of 2007 then left on mid year of 2008. Doing my part time business since then onwards. Rejoined back the company on Dec 2008. Why? Since I decided to leave then why I chose to return back? I think the main reason is purely I like the company! I like the colleagues! I like the comfy environment! I like the boss! Be more precise is I like the way both of my bosses treat me! But, I never like the job I do. However, I'm very clear that they are buying my service so I must perform no matter how. Hence, I started again my 9 to 6 life even though I'm not true happy. I always wanted to leave but very ngum sek dak for this lovely couple of nice bosses and lovely colleagues. Afraid that they can't find a very loyal staff like me :P

I think I'm quite famous in my company :D! I'm not cakap besar here ar, Of course there must be a reason behind to support my statement then only I dare to say ma.. But, I never realize that the level of popularity is far more geng chow beyond my awareness. They always remember me when they are working overseas by buying me some pretty nice stuff. I had received countless of souvenirs but never take down a single photo to share with you. I'm so touched by these 2 staffs today. Let me tell you more!

Even though I have many but I like to keep them in the office. Just to display on my workstation.. To show off la. Don't envy ya! LOL.

This is from YY. He traveled to Korea last month with his lovely wife!

Awwww.. this money printed key chain reminding my life in Korea.

I'm the first to choose among others :p

Thanks YY!

Today, there is another 2 sub-contractors Ridhwan and Zainie just back from Indonesia!

And they bought me these 2 useful stuffs! Again, I'm the first receiver, yippy!

I'm so touched not because of I have the gift but because of they are "poor" but still remembering me when they are overseas and get something for me!

Werkudara in Indonesian means HERO!

Thanks Ridhwan!

Jakarta printed baby-T

Fit nicely on me :)))

Thanks Zainie!

I'm so blessed that I've built up a very good relationship among my colleagues!!! I like them and they like me :)

But, thing doesn't goes well lately because of the new comer-C. Everything that I do all this while seems wrong with C. Boss started to protect C unreasonable. This made my heart so pain. This has stopped me to keep thinking for the company. This has against my initial purpose to rejoined back the company. Maybe this is the signal from GOD. He is directing me to the path I should walk this year. Maybe it has comes to an end... Maybe is time to say GOODBYE. I'm tired to bear with your hypocritical faces. It's unbearable anymore to me.... C, I'll be leaving soon and let you to conquer the whole world as you like! Get lost, bitch!

This is the YEAR

It's such a blessing and fortunate for me to step into 2010 with brand new vision and mission. If you asked me what have I did for the past 2009? Well, past is past, happened is happened, happy is happy, sad is sad. No such WOW achievement for me to show off here but a lots and a lots of good and bad memories to browse back. We always have option. So, I'm giving 2 options NOW either I keep thinking back and feel sad or I move on with broad vision and to sail more adventurous. The "choice" is on me! Why bad experienced is easily branded in our memory??? And why I always cannot forget them?!!! I really wish that I can remove ALL the bad memories in my brain! Only store those happiness! I really wish and I really meant it BUT I know that this is impossible. Life is not always as what we wish to be.... Sorry, i'm so emo today >.<

Haluk Demirbag said :"In order to achieve the change you desire you must be motivated by a dream much bigger and more positive than whatever you want to change in your life."

Waking me up on why I still doing what I was doing on last Jan 01, 2009 today? Because my dream is not bigger and positive enough to push me to move on seriously to achieve what I want! Awwwww.. so true! Even though I was showing to everyone that I'm moving positively and happily but the fact is I still very depending on ONE person. I was really 24/7 stalking on this person without me knowing myself that I am actually doing this. This is so miserable coz I only realized today!!! Aih~ luckily only ONE year delayed for me to realize :)

Of course there is always the BAD comment and GOOD comment on us. We cannot control whatever people think and say about us BUT again we have the option to LISTEN or to REJECT those comment. I am that kind of person that willing to accept any comment and to change only after I "filter". If I think you are right then I'll do, if it is pointless then I'll smile and walk away. This practice takes my life much more easily. Do it, if you want to have an easy life like me :)

Looking back to my 2009, actually I'm still doing the thing that I do not really like to do. I'm still leaving my DREAM aside without turning them into reality. I'm still giving EMPTY promises to myself and family. I'm still keep lying to myself that ONE day the hope that I always hope will become TRUE. I'm still believe that he will change because of me. I'm still waiting for him to say something that I wanted to hear long time ago. I'm still not shaping up successfully. I'm still giving many excuses for myself to not moving on. I'm still loving the guy who is not worth for my love. I'm still stupid and naive on handling human relationship. HUH~ Many STILL hor.. There is still many STILL to be listed down until tomorrow night =_=" Comes to the conclusion: I'm still very weak on keeping my promises and discipline to working hard on myself. Well, I must kick away all these negativity in my year 2010 :D

This year, I must:-

#1 Be SERIOUS to HERBALIFE

I knew Herbalife when the time I was looking for work from home opportunity on year 2007. I met many others opportunity out there but only its video clip that really clicked me into it. Thanks GOD! I'm so fortunate that I joined a HUMAN COMPANY. Why I said so? I worked for few companies before but NONE of the companies can make me weeping. Only Herbalife! Any single word, phrase, picture, video clip, message or people can touch my little heart easily and made me weeping anytime anywhere. And Herbalife is always in my dreams. I do not know why but I know this must be the clear message for me - A company that I should tag with for the rest of my LIFE... I was fooling myself for 2 years time so this is the year for me to become really serious with Herbalife. To realize my health and wealth goals. Watch me out!!!

#2 Slim down to 45kg

No more curi-curi makan! No more tipu-tipu sendiri! No more eat first la, tomorrow only start gam fei! Cis~ Choy! I must slim down to 45kg in order to make my DREAMS come true in 2010!!!

#3 FIRE MY BOSS

This plan is always my plan when the time I rejoined back the same company on contract and helping base basis. I'm very clear that I am not belongs to 9-6 group. I always wanted to do my own business. It shouldn't be coming too fast but due to one super hypocritical and kepochi lady is now "landed" in my office! I hate to see her! I hate to talk to her! I hate everything about her! I should be very thankful to her because she speed up my plan! Thank you, KPC!

#4 Open my First Nutrition Club

Because of I want to get serious with Herbalife so I must fire my boss. After fire my boss, I must have a great tool to run my business, right? To own a nutrition club is a must for me in order to steadily grow my business. I have no choice but a must to have ONE by June later.

#5 Be consistent for Swimming and Yoga

I allocate 2 hours for swimming every weekend now. To my surprised, my stamina is getting better and better after 2 weeks I started to re-swim again. From half lap until today 6 laps on the row. Clap clap for myself :)

Joined for 1 free trial session and noticed that Yoga is so powerful! Not like what I thought all these years. I was sweating 10x than playing badminton game!!! My friend Jenny said those sweat is not like any sweat during heavy sport. After yoga sweat, your skin will immediately get extra silky smooth!!! BRAVO! Must do must do now!

#6 Definitely give more time to my lovely family

I know youngster are more happy to chill with friends and sweet heart but never forget the root where you come from. The mature I grow the more I like to stick with my parent. They always put me on No. 1! I'm so blessed that I born into a loving family :)))

Dear Dad and Mum, I cannot requite both of you for your care and upbringing. It's so invaluable and printed forever in my life. All I can do now is work extremely harder to bring the lifestyle that you want in a super short period. I know both of you are getting older so I must be sure to do it when the time we are still have energy and be able to hand in hand together!

#7 Pick up social dancing skills

I have a little dream. I want to be able to dance whenever people ask for. I am pretty shame for not knowing how to dance. Really admire those girls who are able to dance so sexy and yet elegant! I wanna be part of them!

#8 Improve my English and Learn Japanese and Korean

Definitely my English is improving a lot this year but still I am very limited on the vocabulary. This made my posting cannot be as interesting as I want it to be. My speaking is not as fluent as it should be at my age. I do not like to refer dictionary whenever I am doing my reading =_=

I must listen to more English song and English radio channel, watch more English movie and read more English news. Die die also must do ONE every day!

Non Japanese speaks Japanese is kind of cool! Just like Non Chinese speaks Chinese! I really respect and admire those multi lingual! Japan is one of my dream country and I like Japan drama a lot. One day I'll be traveled to Japan, definitely. One day I'll be sitting at home just to watch Japanese drama but normally I cannot understand what they are talking and I really hate to read translation.

I been to Korea last year. Noted that 99.99% of Korean do not speak English. Or can be said ONLY speaks Korean, wtf! Really facing major communication failure when I was there. Not even dare to walk alone without tour guide. But, I love the country! The weather is cool and the people are nice! The food are yummy and the places are so beautiful! I'm thinking to have my tour cum study over there when the time I retire.

#9 Become Generation H

This is the year for me to pick up my career seriously! I know the "shortcut" to let me and my dad to retire earlier! I know what should I do! I'm learning on how to do! I'm lacking behind now so I must give 10x extra effort than others to accomplish my mission! I must be part of Generation H by 2011. This is the year for me to lay my solid foundation. I must lay minimum 75% towards my plan.

I still have more to go but I gotta keep some for myself to do it secretly :)))

Next, what is my vision and mission this year???? I do not have slogan. Slogan is so corporate feel so better not to have one. I'm young and energetic :P

My brand new Vision is to become financially freedom! Don't envy on me when the time I did it! LOL! And my mission is to giving back to the community! Become voluntary worker! To save homeless animals! To bring fun for orphan! Let's DO it together!!!

THE BEST IS YET TO BE !!!