Commitment

*COMMITMENT*

Meant alot for me! But, what does it actually meant?
According to NCIKU:

• 1. the act of committing or pledging
• 2. the state of being committed or pledged
• 3. an obligation, promise, etc that restricts one's freedom of action
• 4. the referral of a bill to a committee or legislature
• 5. the official consignment of a person to a mental hospital or prison
• 6. commission or perpetration, esp of a crime
• 7. a future financial obligation or contingent liability 

It is such a heavy word regardless in anything you do or promise. I always tell myself to have commitment in anything I do. Be it in sports, health, wealth, family, dating, friendship, career and whatever it is la! But, the fact now is I always become a NATO (NO Action Talk Only) instead of really putting effort to accomplish my promise for myself. Let's have a look on my check list:- (Make sure you don't laugh at me ar :P)

1. Lose weight is such a "lifetime activity" for every single girl. Erm.. i personally BELIEVE not only apply to grls nowadays. Most of my guys also busy shape up, wtf! I wanted to kick off my 20KG for so many yearssssssss but the max I succeed was only 10KG and now bounce back -____- This showed that my commitment is not really a commitment ya, FML
2. THREE years ago, I promised and committed to a guy that I will take care and loves him forever. Well, I did a pretty good job task ME for him at the FIRST year. YES, only first year. Slowly, I've becoming a girl who he himself also cannot recognize. Me myself also cannot recognize, too. TIME can be a good curative but sometimes also can be noxious. It is a border thing lo. Over my relationship with him, it is certified that we are LOVE POISONING lo. I'm glad that I was brave enough to make a so called "wise decision" that time => LEAVING HIM. On my first year, it was so painful. Second year, can saw a little bit of sunshine some times but still very painful. Third year, do missed him but only a sudden moment. Today, i'm entering the FORTH year. Man, 4th year! You think so easy to walk alone until here mie? This also proved that I failed with my commitment, FML
3. I am always a hard worker. Good worker. Loyal worker (if you pay me more and more bonus with lots of increment XDXD) NO lei, i'm not so calculative. As long as I can find the satisfaction around the tasks that assigned to me then everything is easy to deal. I bought my 1st double-storey at my age 18. Bought another condominium at my age 19. What a great achievement, right? I was true satisfied and happy for that. Right after 19, I was busy on dating. -__________- So, no more BIG and AWESOME achievement on my career until today. Life is so siannn to me now. I really want to "rejuvenate" my mind, soul and body for another level of satisfaction THIS YEAR! Watch me out ((:

I think these 3 points already showed that I'm only a 3 minutes hot grl in doing anything in my life until this moment. Be it in health, wealth and relationship. Most of the times, I also @~@ dunno what I really want. Hmm.. but I always believe people will grow little by little, day by day. Today, I'm kinda sure what I really want NOW. May be is ridiculous to you but it is possible to achieve for myself. I will cover more on my BIG PROJECT this year in my next post!


It's time to Zzzzzzzz.. Good night everyone ((:


P/S: I know that there are always some readers on my blog but maybe just to shy to leave comment for me. Come on.. come talk to me la.. Hahaha!