the latest me

i know i have not update my blog for quite sometimes already. very sorry! thanks for all the caring emails. i love to receive and really enjoy reading all your cutest concern for me... *touch*
hmmm... am i consider as starting to have certain readers for my blog :p very happy lor!
what were I doing for these 2 weeks?
i have done my reading for eat,pray,love by elizabeth gilbert, princess magical charms by aness.an and tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom. now reading for one more day by mitch albom, too.
i don't know since when i developed reading habit. but, to my surprise, i have really become a better girl. hmmm... in terms of emotional management. feeling management. i meant feeling towards those comment and incident that discomfort me. i was always throw my tempered to anyone who just next to me when thing doesn't happen on my way. but now, i am learning to think on their shoes before think on my own shoes. i will try my very best to think why he acts like that, why he talks like that to me? i am trying to see it from different perspective. and such act really calm me down much more faster than usual. the book that really touched me is tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom. it is about last 14 tuesday classes from a lecturer who has diagnosed "amyotrophic lateral sclerosis", called ALS in short to his student who received his lectures 16 years ago. i was crying the whole 14 chapters. i don't know why. but his message is so simple and direct. really leads me to think for my future. what do i really want? all these years, i thought i must buy a big house, drive luxurious car, eat whatever food i like, buy anything i love, hang around with anyone i am comfortable with. all these must be done with my family. this is really what i thought since the first day i know how to earn income. i had my 1st double storey at my age 18 then 2nd condominium at my age 19. what an awesome achievement for a young girl like me. after the book, i realized actually those materialistic stuff is not really what i want deep inside my heart. what do i really want is LOVE!!! lots of LOVE!! endless LOVE!!! true LOVE!! i am seriously lacking of LOVE all these years. is funny that i only realized it at my age 26. better than no chance to realize huh? the second i finished the last page, i have decided and committed to give out my true and sincere love to everyone around me. never expect for any returns. of course if i have the chance to receive love is much much much better. everyone does knows that we must give before we gain. i start to give first and you pour yours to me later on, deal?
now i realized that actually i am surrounding by love. but i never learn to appreciate. to me, i am so cute, that's why i deserve your love. but, i have misused the love that my friends gave it to me. i am sorry. i also misused the love that my parents give without any reason. i treats it as "lei so dong yin" which means is your JOB to give love. in fact, it is NOT. and if we treat today is our last day to live on the earth, the day we are going to die then you will have the complete 360 degree changes on your attitude to everything! human never believe that they will die one day or perhaps next second. that's why keep fooling the precious time. and always drag until tomorrow only to do. well, i am not up to that stage yet. i am still learning on how to really treat my day as my last day in life. i believe if one day i can adapt it into my life then i am completely another me. i believe i will gain more love. i really waiting for the day to come. very emo post huh? but this is me at this moment. suddenly i realize the things or principles that i am holding all these years are actually suffering me a lot. when your heart open, you really can see the opportunity everywhere. you will find out how childish you are on holding those really small matter, small person into your own personal life. i am like that. holding on a something not worth my time. foolish time. all the time has gone. i was creating drama in my head all these years. and those drama is actually not happen. hahaha! those are happening make me trying to escape but those are not happening make me face it everyday. hahaha! 
moving on....
wow! i do have some great news to share. i don't know what happened. but, there is 2 guys approached to me at the same time. hahaha!!!
both are Mr Nice Guy!

forgiveness

recently, i started to learn to be more open heart in sharing. sharing my real feeling deep inside my heart not my mind. mind always lie but rational. heart always honest but irrational. lie vs honest. it's so hard to weigh when comes for decision. honestly, i looked so rational in front of my family and friends but behind them i always do irrational things. this is the main reason why i still haven't settle down since 3 years ago. many bad incidents  happened over the past 3 years after our separation. hmmm.. i should said those were actually good signs for me. i realize i have control issues. i like to control everything. easily get depressed when the thing not going on my way. this could be the main reason why i escaped from my marriage years ago. thank you for all the experiences over the years, else i won't be able to write up this post. a real me post.
both of us are changed since 8 years ago when we met up and started to date. after so many good and bad changes occured, we still able to accept each other. this is true love. you will realize true love when your partner has become another person who seems so closed but yet strange to you and you still love him or her for who he or her is. congratulation! congratulation to both us!
whatever we did on the past, hurting each other, scolding each other, acting cool to each other. we holding those matters seriuosly and not willing to let go on our past. today, i can tell you we already let go. forgiveness do happen among us. i am growing! 
maybe one day we will recouple again if he tells me:
i knew i have screwed it up, but i will love you forever!!!

and again!

Enough is enough. Enough is really meant enough. But, why I never learnt from it? I always told myself not to get distracted, not to easily fall into the trap again. Whatever happen, just stand still with my own principle. But, alas, i always failed =_______________= (Maybe. I don't even know what is my principle?)
A girl is willing to travel for more than 20km for ONE WAY every single night just to see a guy who he himself not really treats her well. Back and forth 40km. Just to spend 2 to 3 hours to meet a guy? A Mr Not Nice Guy, wtf. Go home late at night or i should say early in the morning 1am to 2am or 3am? I just can say she is so STUPID! Opsss.. she is very GREAT!
The guy left her alone on the roadside with her own car and drives his car to look for his beloved wife. The girl unwilling to give up coz the guy just dumped her alone. She secretly followed his car to his destination. The guy only awared when he almost reach his beloved wife's house. Why the guy so foolish? Not even aware when someone is followed while cruising along the road? It's funny for me! Long story short, the girl didn't managed to know where his beloved wife's stay. It's LUCKY! Else, the innocent wife might in "danger". Hahaha!
Few morale of the story:-
1. The guy is lucky because he found a girl who loves him more than he does.
2. The girl is so great in giving out her love but unfortunately to a wrong man in her life.
I concluded, both of them don't even know what is LOVE about! The girl is a possesive person. The guy is not insisted enough. Obviously, the guy really really loves his wife but he has screwed it up!

The biggest secret for my post is I AM THE BELOVED WIFE, wtf, kns!
HAHAHAHAHAHA, yeah, serioulsy, just for sharing, for fun to fuel your day up! :D

I am moving...

dunno wat title shud b given

trying to post with my berry. a berry that gary bought for me. sometimes he really touched me. watched sex n the city vi just now. wow, it's awesome! it's good that if we really find true friends during our breathe time. it's even better if we date for true love forever, or perhaps once. i'm in my middle of 20's now. a decade for me to learn, get hurt, fall down, stand up, forgive, act cute (hey, i'm a real cute gal), create story, dates, work, eat, play! n wateva!

Time vs Discipline = MONEY

Time flies fast.. super fast...

Now has comes to an end of July 2010...

Over the seven months, i have lost my anticipation for my dreams, i living in apprehension for many reasons

many nonsense reasons.. many.. many...

it's not easy to build momentum and discipline for our dreams, i have given up half way.. not even reach quarter of my journey..

i hate to see a NATO [no action talk only] me, real hate!!!

everything happened is because of I,me,myself ALLOWED it to be happened on me! funny.. is a sad funny.

especially over the past two months, i have had a hellish life, my frame of mind is just like.. suddenly rolling down the slope, suddenly striking to the sky. it is so extreme till breathless.

now has comes to the end. i decided to let it END! without YOUR consent, well, you've no right to approve for me though.

this is my life! i must be responsible for myself. NOT you.

after my strong affirmation for myself, i started to see sunshine reflects on my chubby face and body, i can feel the heat, the positive energy, the strong power that keep pulling me out from the dark moon, no lights.

i appeal to myself to live my SECOND CHANCE OF LIFE with fullest!

EVIL YOU, stay away from ME!!!

I am ALIVE ('',)

原来我还是很坚强。。。

一直被感情问题纠缠给我，终于下定决心将它彻底给解决去。[我知道我讲佐千百次？！]
一直以为是我当初给霸道同埋任性将他伤害了。
一直以为里一切给一切是我自己将事情给搞砸了。
一直以为总有好多一直以为。。。真是白痴到！！！
我都不明是么耶令到我撑到今日还抱着个一丝丝给期望咯。
他话：女人应该学蠢点，男人先喜欢。
我静静给没回答。心理想，难道明知道你给所作所为是会伤害到自己给，都要忍声吞气吗？
我是一个好理智给新时代女性咯！
我真是没办法做到“委屈求全”，对吾住！

由5 月尾开始，我一直都被他“所谓给前度女友”纠缠不放。
虽然同他一起甘多年，
虽然已经被他背叛过千百次，
虽然我一次又一次甘没条件甘原谅他，
虽然他一次又一次甘做被我剃他有给重视我，
虽然他不曾大大声甘恼我，
虽然他好识得哄我，
虽然他对我是百分之二百给大方，非常舍得花钱是我身上，亦都没拿过我便宜，
虽然他时不时都会关心我，
虽然还有好多个虽然。。。
但是，
我真地真地好累，好累，好累。。。

我相信他是真的爱我，我能感受到，
我相信所有给背叛都是他一时贪玩。
我知道我已经原谅晒他所做错给一切。

是一本书上，忘记佐作者给名，在此讲声：sorry! 她讲：
如果当对方变佐同当初你所认识给吾一样而你一样甘喜欢对方给话，恭喜你！你已经揾到你给真爱！

而我到今日为止，依然总甘喜欢他，是好事定是坏事？

meaningful Thursday

Early morning, I drove all the way down to Phileo Damansara II for one of my most important event at this time. I'm glad that I've made up a brilliant decision at this time. I dunno how long it will last but at least I know it is such an important for me. There is always another heaven beyond the existing one... Now I see more...
Traveled down to Times Square for my business. Spent some time in Borders. Thought of wanna get a book from Jim Rohn named 12 pillars but ALL Jim Rohn books were sold out, wtf! So best selling mei??? (I know he is always the TOP la) He is my 1st GURU in life.. when the time I felt down 3 yrs ago.. He really healed me and taught me on how to get up faster. I'm sad that you had leave us early of this year but you're always in my heart... and whatever you've said and taught me I'll continue to improve, to learn, to share .... Eventually, I got another book: 365 Daily Lessons in Self-Mastery by Anthony Robbins: Giant Steps (Small changes to make a BIG difference) It's actually a pocket sized only. Easy to carry & light.

Well, I used to be in corporate world for 9 years. My timetable was get used to be on routine and always there was someone to kick my ass to work. Now, I'm starting to do my own business, plan my own time and everything me myself have to start to work first. It's pretty hard to change immediately. And my sponsor is not from local. She is from Los Angeles. Man, she is at the other side on earth. Hard for her to kick my ass to work. In fact, she has no responsibility to do so because this is my very own business. Is for myself, for my future and for my family. I'm the one who must take up the whole responsibility and to make sure it works on me.I spent 30 mins on reading it inside the Borders coz everybody is doing the same :D Surprisingly, I found it's so useful for me! I was struggling whether want to own it or not. Coz I still have about 15 books line up for me to read. *giggle* Yes, I like to buy and put it aside, wtf. In the book, Anthony trying to inspire us to start to do a very small change on ourselves by TODAY. Something like everyday change 1% then 100 days you'll get 100% lo. This is for 365 days so you'll get to change 365% lo. Walao~ that's alot! More than 360 degree, man! If you follow seriously everyday without fail, I guarantee you'll be a brand new person.LOL~
Before I hold back, I quickly walked towards the cashier and took out my RM50 and passed to the man. Then I heard, cashier is over there not here. WTF, malu~nya me! Nah~ I'm about to hold back this time. When I looked at the cashier, he is waiting for me to walk there. See! I can't hold back! Must buy! Must buy!
Gone! my RM50. Huh~

Next, I drove to my office for Weight Loss Challenge training. Ushdi is a full time university lecturer and doing part time business with my company. She just got promoted this month as International Global Expansion Team member. Her monthly income with my company now is from RM 15,000 onwards. Man, that's alot!
I'm on the way, woohoo!

Life Changing Event ~ Extravaganza Asia Pacific

It is day 25 of the calendar month of April 2010 today.
I still haven't go for heavy workload, wtf.
Went for more than 10 trainings since day 1 of April 2010, broke my previous years record.
I know clearly what I should do but I didn't carry out seriously, fml!
The biggest event in my company is going to happen next month in Singapore!
I promised myself to bring 20 first line with me together to this life changing event. But, I've zero now, *pressure pressure* coz I never do the work it should.
I was sitting in front of the computer since yesterday morning and kept browsing HBN (Herbalife Broadband Network) for the product training and personal development. It is amazing! 
I must start work now, no more delaying, wtf!

I was in Bangkok on year 2008


I was in Korea on year 2009

  Herbalife Extravaganza - Korea - June 19-21, 2009

This year I'll be going to Singapore for the Extravaganza! Woohoo~ I've done my flight ticket! I've done my hotel reservation! But, I haven't purchase my Extravaganza entrance ticket, wtf. Anyway, I'll gao dim by next week. I'm sure this Extravaganza will change my life permanently because now I understand what is Herbalife, why Herbalife and NOW IS THE TIME! This year, our vision is THINK BIG. BE PROUD. Yes, Herbalife has taught me how to think big since 2 years ago and this year I really feel proud that I'm part of Herbalife - Herbalife Independent Distributor. I'm so PROUD! (Not that I didn't feel proud since 2 yrs ago, just that now I've understood more :P)

We welcome those who are now standing at the intersection of life to join at this life changing event. Contact me if you really want to change your life! Pick up your phone or send me an email. I'm happy to help you. :D

Vacations 2010

Woohoo! My company just announced this year local vacation - Club Med Cherating, Kuantan !!!
Oh, I must go! I must go! I must wear bikini! I must shape up like crazy now!
What an exciting newsssssssssssssssssssssss!

Another one is even more exciting man! Aloha, HAWAII !!!
Higher qualification. Hmm.. I know it's NOT easy but when there is a will there is always a way lo.

 

I really want to go this time! I don't know why but the feeling is strong. So strong!
Have my goal - Set my plan - GO GO GO!!!

1st Mega Event in Northern Region Penang

This weekend going down to Penang to meet Craig and Caroline Tsutakawa who all the way down from California! In order to be success, we must learn from success people, right? I made my commitment to be there.

Click on the pitcha to view their full story...

B-Suite hotel. Very spacious and comfy yet cheap!

Vayne is doing the registration

Me being kepoh aside. XDXD

Very clean wood floor but still I want to wear the room shoes

Having my 1st solid meal HERE

A well-known tourist place

Vayne recommend me this uncle char kuey teow - A must eat food in Penang

"people mountain people sea" lei

all chubby and fluffy one. HAHA

Vayne is so happy

I'm happy too before but it didn't taste as good as I thought

I still prefer KL char kuey teow... =_=

 

 "O-Jian", char kuey teow, fruit rojak, "sha-lei" juice

 

 Took a picture with this Silver guy, wtf!

After I left, he is sitting on the next chair and smoke, FHL

Arrived @ G-Hotel early 7.30am

Took some seaview picture from the hotel with my "soh gua" camera

Before the event start...

Very excited to meet both of them soon ^.^

They're OUT! They're OUT!

They are really amazing speakers! 

Not just share with full heart but also act to tell us how they got started in the business

Yippy! I'm so grateful to have the chance to take picture with Millionaire. Simply the BEST!

It's SHAKE time! Strawberry vs Chocolate

My cutest friend - Sharon from Kulim ((:

With Penang friends

We're in the President Team's Dinner

which dine with all VIPsssssss sekalian. Woohoo~

dessert time!

 with VIPssss
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 Special Guest today

 our group

 Visit to Penang group's central nutrition club

Ling jei is making the shake for me

Christy also making the shake for me, too

In the Nutrition Club (NC), it serves 3 glasses of "water"

1. Lemon juice - Help to activate our digest system early in the morning

2. Yummy balanced nutritious shake - Balanced nutrition and yet super low calories breakfast which kick start a brand new good day for us

3. Unlimited free flow Energy tea - Provide us Antioxidant,.Burn calories, C (i forgot :P), Detox, Energy

These are my daily breakfast at home, too

 

Very very good! See my healthier look, geek!

 

pitcha with the club owner

 

Thank you to Christy for "hospice" me a night

She is committed to Herbalife before she realized her dreams 

NO TV and entertainment before we become successful

A day trip to Alor Setar with Vayne, Sharon and Jeff

Followed them to follow up with their customers

"curi cikgu" from them. learn from them on how they take good care of their customers

Well, this is my VIRGIN trip to Alor Setar. I thought it is a "ulu-ulu" place with all the rumah atap, sawah padi and etc. But, now seems like I'm totally wrong. It's a modern city just like here. HAHAHAHA!

After spending 4 hours with customers, we're dying for FOOD!

The fastest way is FAST FOOD, wtf!

Well, it was not so good as I thought it should be.

My hunger conquer my mind and body to simply have food just to fulfill my stomach BUT when comes to reality it's really oily and I felt so guilty when the time I eat @~@

Left Alor Setar 9.30pm then heading back to Penang to collect our car. Depart from Penang at 11pm then reached home at 4am this morning. I'm very tired BUT it's worth it!

3 days 2 nights trip all the way down to Penang to learn from all my lovely friends in Herbalife. I'm happy that each one of them are willing to share with me on how they become successful today. I learn, adapt and apply on myself... Thank you so much for your heartening sharing! Of course, I'm learning and playing at the same time. HAHAHA