HUMAN RELATIONSHIP

I'm about to sleep now but deep inside my heart there is a soul saying that I MUST voice out tonight else I'll be going for STATIC mode on coming time. Pretty true...
Recently, I feel not so happy to tag along with some friends who I quite used to tag along with. I'm not going to disclose any details here as those friends might read my blog. I'm not afraid if he/she accidentally or purposely read my blog or whatever shit. But, I do it is simply because of my PROFESSIONALISM. Come on, I'm a mature adult, I can't simply say anyone bad thing over my blog, right? But, still I'm a normal human, too. I need to express myself @ the right time @ the right place with the right people Ermm.. is pretty sad to tell you that I don't have any right people by my side now so I've no choice to voice out my deepest feeling here.
We knew each other for minimum 10 years already. Passed thru so many touching moments and did so much silly acting ((: Well, seriously, I do appreciate our friendship. Really.. I DO. But, recent these few years, they've had did so much things that really hurt me. Never tell them.. Most of the time, I chose to keep quiet - mark in my memory - filter them slowly - give them benefit of doubt - second chance.... Not everyone will appreciate the chances that we given out. Well, I told myself: "That's fine.Go sleep now... they'll back to be a better person for you tomorrow. By tomorrow, our friendship can be back on track."  Life is GOOD and CRUEL sometimes. GOD seems like haven't receive my message that's why till date everything IS JUST THE SAME. Luckily, I still own another bunch of friends who are in the same alignment with me. Feel so great when somebody understand me. The feeling is terrific!
Hey friends,
maybe we cannot continue to walk the path together... 
maybe I been talking rude to you recently...
maybe I slowly stay far away from you...
maybe I stop listening to your calls and replying to your SMS...
maybe I will block you in all my communication webs one day...
maybe I don't even feel like wanted to know any single news from you...
Anyway.... Anyhow... Whatever SHIT...
I still WISH that your life will be continued sparkling, shining, happy & happening even without ME!!!
Thank you for leaving your precious foot print on my book... GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU ONCE UPON TIME ((((((:

Commitment

*COMMITMENT*

Meant alot for me! But, what does it actually meant?
According to NCIKU:

• 1. the act of committing or pledging
• 2. the state of being committed or pledged
• 3. an obligation, promise, etc that restricts one's freedom of action
• 4. the referral of a bill to a committee or legislature
• 5. the official consignment of a person to a mental hospital or prison
• 6. commission or perpetration, esp of a crime
• 7. a future financial obligation or contingent liability 

It is such a heavy word regardless in anything you do or promise. I always tell myself to have commitment in anything I do. Be it in sports, health, wealth, family, dating, friendship, career and whatever it is la! But, the fact now is I always become a NATO (NO Action Talk Only) instead of really putting effort to accomplish my promise for myself. Let's have a look on my check list:- (Make sure you don't laugh at me ar :P)

1. Lose weight is such a "lifetime activity" for every single girl. Erm.. i personally BELIEVE not only apply to grls nowadays. Most of my guys also busy shape up, wtf! I wanted to kick off my 20KG for so many yearssssssss but the max I succeed was only 10KG and now bounce back -____- This showed that my commitment is not really a commitment ya, FML
2. THREE years ago, I promised and committed to a guy that I will take care and loves him forever. Well, I did a pretty good job task ME for him at the FIRST year. YES, only first year. Slowly, I've becoming a girl who he himself also cannot recognize. Me myself also cannot recognize, too. TIME can be a good curative but sometimes also can be noxious. It is a border thing lo. Over my relationship with him, it is certified that we are LOVE POISONING lo. I'm glad that I was brave enough to make a so called "wise decision" that time => LEAVING HIM. On my first year, it was so painful. Second year, can saw a little bit of sunshine some times but still very painful. Third year, do missed him but only a sudden moment. Today, i'm entering the FORTH year. Man, 4th year! You think so easy to walk alone until here mie? This also proved that I failed with my commitment, FML
3. I am always a hard worker. Good worker. Loyal worker (if you pay me more and more bonus with lots of increment XDXD) NO lei, i'm not so calculative. As long as I can find the satisfaction around the tasks that assigned to me then everything is easy to deal. I bought my 1st double-storey at my age 18. Bought another condominium at my age 19. What a great achievement, right? I was true satisfied and happy for that. Right after 19, I was busy on dating. -__________- So, no more BIG and AWESOME achievement on my career until today. Life is so siannn to me now. I really want to "rejuvenate" my mind, soul and body for another level of satisfaction THIS YEAR! Watch me out ((:

I think these 3 points already showed that I'm only a 3 minutes hot grl in doing anything in my life until this moment. Be it in health, wealth and relationship. Most of the times, I also @~@ dunno what I really want. Hmm.. but I always believe people will grow little by little, day by day. Today, I'm kinda sure what I really want NOW. May be is ridiculous to you but it is possible to achieve for myself. I will cover more on my BIG PROJECT this year in my next post!


It's time to Zzzzzzzz.. Good night everyone ((:


P/S: I know that there are always some readers on my blog but maybe just to shy to leave comment for me. Come on.. come talk to me la.. Hahaha!

Chinese New Year 2010

This is my 1st ever CNY (Chinese New Year) which I decided to keep myself alone to set my 2010 goals quietly. I never had such thinking / planning for my past 25 years in my life. I strongly feels that THIS IS REALLY A YEAR for myself to really do the things that I wanted to do.Well, life is not always happen as per our wish, right? I still cannot escape to have little fun with my lovely family and some special friends. XD Past years, my the other half was so important to me *eyes kept rolling* (Eh, i think you are just the same like me la!) But, this year I'm true happy to be who I am. XDXD

Last minute unplanned event but true FUN mannn! Michelle and Jaycy throw me a visit on 5pm. To learn some basic make up skills. I'm not a sifu la but can share some basic steps which I found them quite useful one. Then called up June for dinner coz she stayed damn near my house.
Headed to Restaurant Seafood Perlama at Port Klang for our CNY dinner. Time still early so we drove to Jambata Lapan for fun. And a must do thing for us on every gathering - PITCHA like crazy in the car. Yes, we like to pitcha inside the car. Hahaha!

Michelle is doing pretty good on her own make up. I just added on the inner eye liner to make her eyes bigger.

I did 100% make up on June. What do you think??

I touched up for Jaycy. Ermm.. haven't touch up for her neck :P

I hope each one of you do know more on make up basic steps ya after tonight ((:

Lastly, I self made a pineapple bufday tart for Jaycy. 12am sharp is exactly her bufday. Happy bufday, sweetie!

Dining out at Restaurant Ju Siang @ Taman Sentosa Klang. Supposed my mom will prepare our reunion dinner. But, I don't wish her to turn out very tired on the CNY eve. No photos taken as the restaurant was jam packed which made everyone of us eat also no mood. Aih~






Every beginning of the year, I'll go "pai san" (praying) with my family. This year is not an exceptional year. We go "si yer miu" located at Petaling Street, Kuala Lumpur. Donno since when this has become a must do thing in our annual CNY. Hahaha!

Sleeping calmly on fatty leg. hahaha

Dining at a hidden restaurant along the Petaling Street. Lousy environment but food damn good laaaa

I'm a Hokkienese but I do not speak Hokkien, FML! My ba-ba never teach me when I grow up. Baba is a Hokkien and mama is a Hakka but we speak CANTONESE, wtf. Funny right? That's why please bear with me la. A hokkienese do not know how to speak Hokkien. Ya, thousand of friends are laughing at me. I'm just like a jerk T_T Hey, i'm slowly picking up nowadays lei.. Due to not much friends can practice with me so of course is slow improvement la. But, trust me, ONE DAY i'm definitely can chat with you in a pretty fluent HOKKIEN slang, wtf! This day is a big celebration day for all Hokkienese. We called it "BAI TIN GONG" Hokkien tradition is to prepare all the food like the pitcha below in a right portion. Then we pray to GOD sharp @ 12am! To symbolize a good and smooth year in 2010! It's tired but true fun!

Writing my wish on the KongMing Lantern XDXD

Terbang tinggi tinggi so our wish will deliver safely to GOD! hahaha

My brother in law Melvin will treat his family in law which is US la every CNY. And only this time I can feel lil bit of his generosity. LOL! Sorry to say like that but this is the truth ma. Anyway, it was not a cheapskate dinner la. Every year he'll fork out minimum RM 500 for us la. Still very generous to us la.. hahahahaha This year my sister Angel chose Restaurant Hei Loi Tang again -_- She said their package is value for $$$ wor. Seriously, their portion can fit 13-15 person lo. Very worth and taste so good XD

damn mau cubit cubit his chubby face, right?

OMG, dunno what my sister telling, make both Lynette and I gave such weird reaction to her -_-

Celebrate Chap Goh Mei with my Aunt and Family @ Coconut Flower, Port Klang. Spent by my lovely ba-ba! Thank you DAD! It's not a good idea to spend dinner on pack season ya. Huge crowd, lousy service, food sucks and expensive bill, FML!